“Before I formed you in the womb I knew you; Before you were born I sanctified you, I ordained you a prophet to the nations.” -Jeremiah 1:5
It’s hard, I know. Gaining weight and not being able to see your toes anymore is not the easiest thing.
It was hard for me at first. I worked really hard and was in very good shape before I got pregnant. Watching my body change in the way it has was depressing to me. I had eaten so clean and worked out 4+ days a week for months and now it was all going to go away in a matter of weeks? How long would it take me to lose the weight after? Would my tummy ever look the same again? Would I have stretch marks? I work for a fitness company and chose to publicly announce my pregnancy to our members. I was insecure about my weight gain and wanted everyone to know there was a reason behind it. That I wasn’t just being lazy and getting chubby. My body changed quickly. I was visibly showing around 12 weeks and I had even started noticing a few weeks before. I noticed my lower stomach below my belly button start rounding out at only 8 weeks, and the top caught up about 6 weeks later. Before I knew it, none of my clothes fit and complete strangers had started stopping me and asking when I was due. No denying it now! I look very pregnant.
It’s hard to ignore the comments. The “How many babies do you have in there?” and “You’re not due until JULY?” Let’s get one things straight people, yes, I’m POSITIVE there is only one baby in there, he’s just a big one! He’s not scheduled to be here until July unless something goes horribly wrong.
I’ve learned to take them with a grain of salt. I know people don’t mean any harm by them. I’m not sure why or how I got so big, so quickly, but I did! I know it’s uncommon for first pregnancies to show early, I guess little man just wanted to make his presence known!
Lately, I’ve been having more fun with it. This bump is seriously the greatest accessory and I have so much fun dressing it up! It took some time, but I’m realizing more and more how amazing a woman’s body is. This is why we were created. Why we were designed the way that we were. God did an amazing thing when he designed women.
Think about what you are doing. You are growing a human being. You are creating life. You will give birth and even after that your body will continue to provide nutrients for your child. And your body has to go through some turmoils in order to do this. You will be sick and tired, you will throw up, you will gain weight, you will get stretch marks, your hands and feet will swell, you won’t be able to tie your own shoes, but you know what? You will have done something absolutely incredible. I know that women get pregnant and give birth and breastfeed every day, but if you take the time to really really think about it, it’s absolutely amazing what we are capable of.
I know I can complain a lot, I’m sure we all do at some point. But this is the one thing that I can be sure will be worth it in the end.
I’ve come to realize that I’ve never felt more feminine than I do right now. I have a purpose to have this baby, and this baby has a purpose in this world. I’m more than willing to do my time. 9 months seems so little in comparison to what’s to come. My little man is such a precious gift from God and I would do this all over again if it means giving him life.
“Or do you not know that your body is the temple of the Holy Spirit who is in you, whom you have from God, and you are not your own? For you were bought at a price; therefore glorify God in your body and in your spirit” – 1 Corinthians 6:19
xoxo