Breastfeeding Woes -featuring Milkmaid Goods

Breastfeeding is hard.

Ridiculously hard.

I had no idea how time consuming it would really be, how hard it would be physically and emotionally. I feel like my whole day revolves around Sawyer’s next feeding.

When Sawyer was born he wasn’t set on my chest. We didn’t get that skin to skin time. Kurtis wasn’t allowed to cut the cord. They plopped the baby down next to me as I was being wheeled out of the operating room and that was the first time I touched him.

About an hour later, after our family and a few friends had been in to see him, my nurse announced it was time to try breastfeeding. She positioned him correctly, and waited. I was amazed that Sawyer seemed to know exactly where to go and what to do. He tried and tried to latch but couldn’t. The nurse and my best friend, Jessi (who is also a nurse) tried everything to help, and after about 10 minutes of trying, we had to give him a bottle.

“This happens a lot with babies who are extra early,” My nurse said “you might just have to be a pumping mom.”

The next few days went the exact same way. Every 3 hours a nurse would come in and try to get Sawyer to latch. After 10 minutes of no success we would give him a bottle. On day 3 my milk came in with a bang. Holy cow, was it weird to go to bed with the chest I had known all my adult life and wake up with them literally 5 times bigger. And they were heavy and painful.

That afternoon a lactation consultant came in to help us. She was amazing. So patient and nice and she taught us all the tips and tricks we could use to help Sawyer latch so I could breastfeed like I wanted to. She introduced us to our saving grace and worst enemy, the nipple shield. We tried it out and like magic, Sawyer latched. I was so so happy. And although I have nothing but nice things to say about my lactation consultant…that was it. Once the shield worked, she left, with no instructions on how to wean him off of it.

And trust me, I’ve tried. It’s okay, really. It’s a blessing and a curse. I would so much rather use the shield our whole breastfeeding journey than have to exclusively pump. I am incredibly blessed to be able to breastfeed at all. But, as a result, I have to be extremely prepared. I always have one in my diaper bag, an emergency one in my car (learned that I needed that one the hard way), and all over the house. And let me tell you how hard it is to nurse in public with one!

I hated nursing in public to begin with. I know that breastfeeding is natural, and no one should give me a hard time about it, but still. I hated it. The covers never covered enough and trying to hold my shirt up, unclip my bra or tank, put on the shield, and get him to latch, all with a fussy, squirmy baby in my arms was the worst. And 9/10 times Sawyer would knock the shield off because he was so flustered, and I would have to put it back on multiple times before he would eat. All underneath a cover. I dreaded nursing in public and decided I would pump in advance and give him a bottle if I knew we had something going on during a scheduled feeding, which was almost just as hard.

But then, someone suggested a nursing poncho. I was intrigued and looked them up. I found Milkmaid goods on Instagram and knew I just had to try one. What makes them easier is that they cover your full torso, front and back. What made me so insecure with a regular cover is that the sides and back were open, and I felt like I was constantly flashing everyone, and I probably was considering how much trouble I always had with it. Now that it’s getting cooler, if we have a day out, I can just wear my poncho as part of my normal outfit, it’s so cute! When it’s time for Sawyer to eat, I actually usually run to the bathroom, take my shirt off and put it in my bag, attach the shield and then just add baby! I’m so much more comfortable, there’s no more wrestling with my cover to make sure it’s covering what it needs to (it never stayed in place). It’s so much lighter than my old covers as well, so Sawyer and I aren’t too hot. I want one in every color!

Oh, and did I mention it also doubles as a car seat cover?

I love Milkmaid Goods so much, I’ve teamed up with the owners, Stefanie and Amy, to give my readers a 15% off discount! You can check out their shop here and use code “lovely15” at checkout! They also make adorable swaddle blankets for your littles!

Did you have any issues with breastfeeding, especially breastfeeding in public?

Disclaimer: I recieved this product in exchange for review but all opinions are my own. 

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  • Reply skcommand

    Hey there! I just wanted to say that I was in your same boat with the nipple shield (although I didn’t have anyone to tell me to try one out, I just randomly came across a blog about them). Anyways, I thought I was going to have to use it forever and I hated it, but not as much as I hated pumping. One day when he was around 3 months old I just tried it without the shield and he latched! So hang in there and keep trying without the shield every now and then. Good luck and hang in there!!

    Ps: have you checked for a tongue tie? Sometimes that prevents latching!

    September 25, 2015 at 6:25 pm
  • Reply Renee Osborn

    Breastfeeding in public is so tough! I can’t tell you how many time Avery ripped the cover right off and everyone got a little peak and it’s not fun! And now that Avery is older, and we are striking out at the whole weaning thing, he sometimes pulls my shirt up in the middle of a store! After the struggle with Avery, I can’t wait to use a nursing poncho with the next one!

    September 25, 2015 at 8:20 pm
    • Reply katielovelyy1

      Definitely! The ponchos are so much better than regular covers!

      September 25, 2015 at 9:10 pm
  • Reply Brooke @ Silver Lining

    This is so honest and beautiful. I know lots of mamas have the experience where breastfeeding is perfect and natural and their baby is great at it right away. Let’s just say that was NOT my experience! Breastfeeding was so hard! Proud of you for sticking to it. Cute cover too!

    September 25, 2015 at 9:10 pm
    • Reply katielovelyy1

      Thanks so much and congrats to you for sticking with it as well! It’s amazing but HARD.

      September 25, 2015 at 9:15 pm
  • Reply Milkmaid Goods

    That was a beautiful post! I had a difficult time breast feeding my twins and was so frustrated when they wouldn’t latch. Good to know I am not alone. Thanks for teaming up with us at Milkmaid Goods!

    September 25, 2015 at 10:01 pm
    • Reply katielovelyy1

      Thank you! I had so much fun working with you!

      September 25, 2015 at 10:50 pm
  • Reply Deborah

    I am far removed from my breast feeding days, but I am glad that you have stuck with it and found ways to accommodate your needs, and Sawyers! That poncho really is too cute!

    September 25, 2015 at 11:18 pm
  • Reply lisaran

    I totally know how you feel with breastfeeding in public! It is awkward at the best of times! I am so glad you found a product that worked so well for you 🙂 I will totally check it out!

    September 26, 2015 at 2:33 am
  • Reply theheavenlyrose

    Great post! I agree, breastfeeding is TOUGH! I’m glad you got the nipple shield to work for you. Hey, if it works it works right?! My shield was a life saver in the beginning because of my sore nipples. It made a huge difference. Check out my post where I talk about my experience, tips & essentials

    September 26, 2015 at 4:48 am
  • Reply outbackrevue

    Great post! They never tell you beforehand some of the “possible” problems you can encounter with breastfeeding! Found your post very refreshing (and tempted to buy one of those ponchos *just because* – they look great and fashionable too!)

    September 26, 2015 at 4:39 pm
  • Reply Ros Emely@stressfreemommies

    Love the poncho! it is such a beautiful and stylish way to breastfeed ;).

    September 26, 2015 at 7:47 pm
  • Reply anotheryegmommy

    I had this happen with my first born. Nipple shields are my nemesis. And them falling off…the worst. Good luck to you and that nursing poncho is beautiful.

    September 27, 2015 at 7:18 pm
  • Reply Anne Campbell

    I breastfed all three of my boys, and nobody can really prepare you for how time consuming it is and how difficult it can be at times. But, it is so worth it in the long run! These ponchos are so pretty–I wish they had been around when I was nursing. It is much more socially acceptable to nurse in public now than when I was nursing, but I know how awkward it can feel when you have a busy baby. I never could do it. Your are doing great, mama! Hang in there!

    September 28, 2015 at 2:13 am
  • Reply caendicott

    I’m glad you got things figured out. Hopefully things continue to go well for you.

    September 28, 2015 at 6:06 pm
  • Reply Melissa (Wading Through Motherhood)

    I never really liked breastfeeding in public either! That poncho looks great!

    September 29, 2015 at 5:22 am
  • Reply Claire

    its SO hard!! But you’re doing a great job and doing what’s best for your baby! That cover is adorable!

    September 29, 2015 at 9:42 am
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