I have to keep reminding myself of that!
I’ve been really frustrated lately with mine and Kurtis’ work schedules. For an engaged couple, we don’t get to spend a lot of time together. Don’t get me wrong, we try to see each other every day. But it’s usually either when he gets off work at 9pm or I get off work at 10pm. And then we watch a movie together or something for a couple of hours, then part ways to get some sleep. If one of us has to open at work the next morning, we usually only see each other for an hour or two.
A few days ago he randomly had a saturday off, and I didn’t have to be at work till four, so we got some engagement pictures taken and went out to lunch and it was the most fun we’d had together in a long time.
So I’ve been really frustrated. I spend my days laying around the house before work and wedding planning. Half my bridesmaids live in California and the other half are in school, Kurtis is always at work or school, so I do most of the planning by myself or with my mom. All the while I’ve been asking myself, is engagement supposed to feel this lonely?
But what can you do, right? It’s no one’s fault.
Yesterday was a really hard day. But despite the things that kept going wrong, some awesome things happened. When I was walking into work I ran into a man outside named Frank. He is opening up a dance studio two doors down from froyo! We got to talking for a little bit and he asked me if I knew anyone who was a dancer, and of course I told him that I was. He told me his studio is mostly ballroom but he was thinking of offering a fundamentals ballet course one or two nights a week and asked me if I would be interested in teaching it. UM. DUH.
Not only is teaching something I’ve always wanted to do, but something I would actually enjoy doing. And at only one or two nights a week, I could easily keep working at froyo, and just pocket the extra cash from teaching.
I’m not entirely sure how serious Frank was. If he will actually go through with offering a ballet course or not, or if I would actually get hired to teach it, but just being offered this opportunity lifted my spirits a lot.
Later that night, work was complete chaos. Everything kept going wrong and it was really busy and I was having to work alone for most of the night. After a while, I lost it. Ever had a meltdown at work? You really need to have a good cry but there’s still customers to take care of, so you have to do your best to keep smiling? It’s the worst. But my boss came in with her family and came into the back to discuss something with me. She told me Jessi was going to be pursuing a CNA job and Lucy was going to be managing the new store and wanted to give me more responsibility at the Parker store. It includes a slight raise and more hours. She also told me she wanted to start alternating my hours so I could have alternate weekends off! I’ve been working every single Saturday and Sunday night for almost TWO YEARS. Those words were such a relief. Now I’ll have more free weekends and Kurtis and I could really use more money before the wedding, lately I’ve been stressing out over the possibility of having to find another job.
But with the promotion at my current job, and the possibility of teaching dance a few nights a week, we just might be set!
I’ve been learning lately that we’re really not supposed to get too comfortable. The last couple weeks have been really uncomfortable for me. But God had a plan all along, I just needed to be patient. He comes through time and time again, and yet, every time I’m uncomfortable, I forget to trust that But he always does.